*points to name of thread* :D

(Un-named) =o

Trouble...

My mind...
So many different thoughts
So many different feelings

Too many...

You said, "I love you."
I said it, too
The trouble is...
was it true?

I didn't know what to think
What to feel...
What to do...

Until the day you held me close,
and said again, "I love you."

I knew then that my life had changed
For the better,
Not the worse

I knew then that my life without you
would be just like a curse

Now I feel loved
Now I feel happy

You're there for me
I'm there for you

When you say, "I love you." now
I know for sure it's true.

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*bows* ^_^

Great work mum:D:P ^_^ Love poems are the best.

thank ya very much ^_^

I didnt know what to name my last poem, or this next one for that matter:


When we got together
I thought everything would be perfect

I'd finally found that someone,
The one who loved me as much as I loved him
The one who I could talk to about anything and everything
The one I cared for with all my young heart

Time went on
And things were changing
We'd talk rarely,
I hated this change...

In my time of need
I couldn't find you

I wanted to talk to you
Hear your voice
Feel your touch
I just wanted you...

I'd cry at night
when I hadn't seen you for
so long

I wondered what you were doing
and what all you felt
what all you needed...

Did you feel this way, too?
I didn't know...
But I wanted to know
I wanted to know everything

I started feeling different
like I didn't love you
But I did
I know I did
It was confusing...

I saw you again
And we talked
I didn't tell you my feelings
I didn't ask about yours
I should have...

I couldn't tell you through words
And you didn't know what expressions I had
I still don't know how to tell you...
Will I ever know?

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kind of long... but eh, oh well

Good poems. Nice to read, interesting. Keep them up.:)

Heh,those poems are ruley Desi. *Claps and hugs Desi.* Encore,encore,please! ^_^

thank ya for da compliments ^_^

This next poem I didnt write, but I read it in a book, and I really liked it;

He Finally Said, "I Love You."

As I looked into his eyes
And found his longing stare
I stopped myself from saying words
That would show how much I care
I put my hand up to his face
To hold my feelings in
I wouldnt say the words again
To show my love for him
The last time I had told him
How much he meant to me
He put my hands away from his
And said to leave him be
I never spoke the words again
For fear of his deep fright
I though it was the last time
Until that blissful night
His fingers traced around my face
Pushing hair away
And I was quite unprepared
For What he was to say
My heart beat quickly, my head raced on
I thought that I might cry
He looked as if he might faint--
Imagine this strong guy
But never would I be more impressed
With anything he'd do
Than when he took that heartfelt leap
And told me, "I love you."

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It is really pretty to me ^_^ compliments about it would be great :) ;)

Heh, even though it's not done by you it's still pretty ruley Desi. Where did you get it from? I want the boook...

When are you going to put up sopme new poetry. I want some now De! ^_^

Thank you Amelie, much appriciated.


My Love

Your like the moon;
You guide me through the darkness of the night
The one who shines brightly,
You're my help, you're my light.
I'd be lost without you
I wouldnt know where to go
I couldnt live without you
oh, how I love you so

How you hold me, give me comfort
The way you say my name
If I didnt have you
My life wouldnt be the same

When I'm sad you make me happy
With the way you make me laugh,
oh, how I await the day
that I can be with you at last.
Until then I'll think of you
every minute... every day...
Until I'm sitting right beside you
hugging you as I say,
"I'll love you forever, and even after that I'll love you, I'll never go away."

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*bows*

Heh, that's ruley. A little too lovey dovey but I can cope Desi ^_^.

I like all of your poems Omega Zell! :D They are very heartfelt, emotional and romantic! They remind me of a special someone. I like your pieces a lot. Keep it up. ^_^.

Thank you guys :)

Thoughts

Piercing my mind,
these thoughts I have
making me wonder...
good and bad.
Some complicated,
those are the worst
I'm frusterated,
my mind hurts.
They rush around
never stopping,
they clash and bash
never haulting.
Too many thoughts...
I need less
Too many faults...
sadness
Why so many?
all at once...
ten or twenty
it's too much.
Just make them stop
go away...
I dont need those thoughts today.

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*bows*

Heh, that's okay Desi. I like 'Thoughts' as I sorta get where it comes from and I really like the last few lines as they really run well together. *Claps.* ^_^

Your poetry is amazing, OmegaZell. I truely love it. keep up the great awesome, wonderfully magnificent work and one other question: at the bottom of the page, you have a little thingy with family info, husband, parents, kids, etc. is that from a game or something?

byyeeee!!!!

sprinkly raine: nah, that's not from a game. it's my shrine family.

thanks for the compliments :)

Feelings

When I'm sad,
I think of you.
I write my emotions,
they're what's true.
I have all these feelings...
deep inside,
all these feelings...
the ones I hide.
No one understands my feelings,
No one really cares
No one understands me...
I dont think it's fair.
I think of this
I write some more
People read it
they get bored
I write what I feel...
When I'm thinking of you
Some are fiction,
most are true.
My emotions are complicated
no one understands...
I get so frusterated,
at all I think and feel,
I wish I didnt think so much...
that it wasnt a big deal
but how can I stop,
all I think and feel?
It's all about you...
your the one that's true.
your the one I love
the one I'm thinking of.

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hmm... I didnt really want to post that one, but oh well. Got the courage to.

Heh, I'm sure I know who that poem is about. *Giggles.* Woah, that poem is really real, emotional, insightful and has a good beat to it.

*Hugs.* GO Desi!! ^_^

That liked that poem...i usually use medaphores a lot in mine...

i have no knowledge of poetry....so to me, good poems are poems with rhymes in it ^_^...so i like your poems...deep and sincere too...

(of course i have read poems with no rhymes,
i like them, too
but poems with rhymes
stick with me, moo(more))

please disregard my inability to write a poem....

Your poems really are beautiful des...how you speak of love and........ahhh.....makes me envy those emotions

heh, thanks guys =D your compliments truely mean alot to me ^_^

My next poem is about someone very special to me... he's helped me alot and understands me well.. I like him very much....

My Knight

You helped me through the darkness
and showed me what was right
You helped me with your kindness
You're my precious knight.
When I was sad, you were there
to help me through it all
You showed me that you cared
You answered when I called.
When you hold me I feel great
like nothing could go wrong
we talk until it's late
listening to our song...
You tell me how you feel
and I tell you the same
I cant believe it's real
It's you that I will claim.
I want to hug you tight
and kiss you with care...
I want everything to be right
for it all to be fair...
Just hold me with your strong arms
like the night before
keep me safe from all harm
let me feel adored...
Let me feel your touch
oh, my precious knight
I like you so much...
You saved me from these webs
of which I was tangled
my precious knight...
let me be your darling angel...

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I wrote that a few days ago... I think it's one of my best....

Mum!! Great again. Although i don't post after every poem, i always read them. You must have a lot on your mind to do those types of poems at that level (high level i add:D) Keep it up *hugs*

hehe, thanks Kie ^_^

and yus, I ~do~ have lots going on in this little mind of mine :uh?:
thank you again for your compliment *hugs back* :)

(EDIT: Happy Birthday, dude ^_~)

Heh, I like 'My Knight' alot and I honestly think it might be your best De. I know who's it's about too and I get where you're coming from. It's really romantic and sweet.

You're a very talented poet and you should be proud. I read all your poems and they all rock so keep it up. YAY!!!

GO De!! *Hugs.* BTW, did you write that short poem in the last bit of your sig?

It's ruley ^_^.

I've seen that poem before, I mean before you posted it...ahh its really beautiful, i find myself reading it over and over, i really like it des, its beautiful, almost as beautiful as u^_^

Originally posted by Chronos
I've seen that poem before, I mean before you posted it...ahh its really beautiful, i find myself reading it over and over, i really like it des, its beautiful, almost as beautiful as u^_^

thank you very much Adam ^_^ you so kind.

And Amelie: nah, the poem-ish thingy in my sig is from a song I like alot for reasons ;)

thanks for the compliments everyone. I'm going to wait a bit before I post my next poem :)

EDIT: mwaharhar, I have to edit my post to put my next poem in:

Thinking Of You

I wake up each morning,
and I automatically think of you.
The image of your handsome face fills my head,
and I cant help but smile.
As I get ready to face the day
I can hear your voice around me.
Your laugh fills me with joy and courage,
and it makes me laugh as well.
I go through my day
still thinking of you
Your kindness makes me happy
and your sweetness makes me glad...
glad to have you in my life.
When I talk to you that day
all of my fears and worries drift off
because I finally get to be with you again.
With my precious knight...
The hours we talk go by so quickly
almost like an instant.
but it's those hours I love.
I wish they'd never end..
leaving me and you to talk forever...
but they do pass... so we go our seperate ways.
But I'm still thinking of you...
That night as I go into my bed
I imagine you there with me.
Your arms wrapping around me
keeping me safe.
Your soft kisses warm on my lips...
you holding me close to your body...
but these are only my thoughts
and what great thoughts they are.
As I drift to sleep
I still think of you...
And at last when I'm finally asleep
I dream of you...
The sweetest dreams of you and me
of us..

(One last Edit: I changed the title... I thought this one might go a bit better with it... hehehe)

^_^ thats a great poem, i really like hearing about your feelings, and how you look at them, and how you feel. you're so great^_^

pooooooooooooooooooootash:D

"My thoughts" is such a beautiful poem. I can totally relate to it, it makes me reflect. Very heartfelt and well written and emotional. :D I like it.

I can't wait to see more work from you! ^_^

Niceness OZ:D. One of your best. ^_^

I can't wait till sunday for your next poem des:D, i look forward to reading it:)

Originally posted by Chronos
I can't wait till sunday for your next poem des:D, i look forward to reading it:)

Gee, how'd you know I was gonna post my next poem today? Surely I didnt tell you :D

thank you everyone for the compliments. It makes me feel good about my poetry, so thank you so much :)

Time


Time...

It's non-stop..
It's been here forever,
Before the begining;
And it shall last longer the end...
and so it will stay that way.

At a point of my life
I thought the time of me was over...
Becoming weak
dying...
never to be or to continue to be.

Gone...

I felt ready for my time to end
and that is felt the same.
I thought Fate had chosen
this different path for me...
but I was wrong,
for a change was to happen.
Something was to bring happiness in my life;

it was you...
it is you.

You... the one who was there...
there to keep the time of me going;
to keep it alive...
to keep me alive.
To be with me through it all.
Thick or Thin,
through everything...

Saving me from fading away,
from drowning in the pool of darkness;
but now...
the darkness has turned to light,
and the light is you...
it's only you;
I didnt know it,
but it's always been you
since the begining...
and it shall be you
longer than the end;

Ever-lasting...

that's my wish,
For our Time together
to last all eternity.
Never coming to a halt,
never to crash or die;

Never-ending..

Fate's path for me has lead to you.
To be with you...

For the rest of Time

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Happy Birthday Chronos ;)

^_^

"Time" is such a beautiful poem. *sniffle, sniffle* Really, really beautiful OmegaZell. Well written. It touched me.

I especially like the last half of the poem. You can tell that you put you heart into each piece.

Keep it up. ^_^.

Heh, I really like those last 2 poems. That 'Time' one is really something. I trying to find one that is my very best but I honestly can't find one cos they are all so perfect.

*Hugs and claps.* Heh, great work Desi. See, you have heaps of fans now so your work must be great.

Oh, Happy Birthday Chronos. Very late, but oh well... Yus, I'm just waiting for the next one now.... ^_^

Thankee ^_________^

yus yus yus, I shall post yet another of my poems!! :D

Only Friends

When I had met you,
I never knew our relationship
could grow to be this great.
I never knew we could have
gotten to be this close...

But we're only friends;
And yet we seem like much more.
How we talk and feel about
each other...
how we care for one another...
I'd like to be more than only friends.

When we talk you always hold me
in your arms.
You always cuddle close to me
and hug me tight.
People cant believe we're only friends.
They suspect we're much more,
and I'd like to be much more...

We have even kissed,
and those kisses are special to me
each time...
because their from you.
How warm my body feels once
our lips have touched...
but still,
I cant believe we're only friends.

How you gaze into my eyes
and smile real sweetly...
I love it so much...
It makes me feel so happy,
and I know you feel the same.
and I know you'd like to be
more than only friends...
much more.

You know what?

I think we are more than friends...

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tee hee ^_^

:eek: :eek: :eek:
^_^

mher, yeah...heh, i liked that poem des! i think it was good, just like all the others^_^ but that one hit me hard, in a good way^_^

Heh, that's ruley and I think I know who it's about. It's written very well and the pace of the poem is just perfect. *Claps.*

Excellent work OmegaZell! ^_^

Thank you very much :)

Okay

I'm sitting in my room right now..
alot of thoughts are going through my mind;
some worries and fears are annoying me...
but I swear that I'm alright.

Nothing's wrong with me
I'm still my same old self...
it's just the thoughts bugging me
I swear it's nothing else...

It's late at night and I cant sleep...
the thoughts and fears are keeping me awake;
their not leaving me to rest...
but I swear that I'm okay.

Nothing is truely wrong with me;
I'm not paranoid.... I think
only the thoughts are bugging me...
and it's my heart about to sink...

The reason why I'm feeling this is
because you have gone away...
right now I am paranoid
but I swear... I'll be okay

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enjoy :)

"Okay" was such a heartfelt and "ruley" poem. Very beautiful and well written and I can totally relate. Keep up the great works OZ. :D

thank you very much ^_^

Start Over

My life has reached a great down-fall...
I'm so messed up..
I do everything wrong.
Nothing I do is good enough for you.
You want more than I can give...

Just let me ask... can I start over?

Is it possible for me to start over?
to begin a new life...? one much better?
free of this torture?

maybe then I'll be able to please you...
maybe then you'll understand me.

But then again... maybe not.
maybe fate has choose it to be this way
I was meant to live this life...
Nothing I do can change my fate;
it will always be there...

I'll just make the best out of everything;
because it's not possible to start over.

"Start Over" was such an honest, heartfelt poem that I can TOTALLY relate too. That poem made me think of some things.

But overall, a wonderfull written poem. Kinda sad, but possibly hopeful in the last two stanzas. I like. Keep it up OZ. :D

Unfortunately I havn't had time to read all your poems, but of the ones I've seen I think they're great! You should definately keep writing, you have talent.

Well done Desi. my heart is aching at the moment, so I will read them again when I am happy.

Oh, I really like those last two poems. *Wiggles.* They're a bit depressing but they are also really real and emotional.

I know where you get your inspiration from too, LOL. Keep it up! ^____^

thanks everyone :) I love reading your coments, and they make me feel very good about my writings... :)

here's my newest poem, written just a few hours ago...

My Tears

Each tear that's caused...
all this pain that I have
all my feelings that are mixed up...
you caused it all

You've used me so much
just for your own benifit
you'ved treated me like dirt
because you felt you could
you used me...

I've thought of this so much,
but havent had the will to stop it
I've been too scared of the results
what it'll all turn out to be...
what'll happen to me...

so I break down and cry
my tears... they stream down my face
my mind isnt my own...
I scream in agony
I cuss at your name...
I hate you...

I have trouble speaking my mind...
when it's about something big
I dont know what's wrong with me
and I dont think I ever will

I've always been kind,
and considerate of others
and I've been too scared to speak the truth...
that's how you used me...
I havent had the will to stop it
I've been too scared of the results
what it'll turn out to be...
what'll happen to me...

so I break down and cry
my tears.. they stream down my face
my mind isnt my own...
I scream in agony...
I cuss at your name...
your hideous name...
I hate you

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enjoy....

Woah... Well, since you told me about what that poem was about before you posted it Desi I was prepared but this poem is really emotional, real and written well so the emotion of anger doesn't get shamed out by what you write about it. Yus, I ~really~ like this poem and even though it's shows the worse side of you (no offence, but it does in a good way of course) it's also real so it makes this poem one of my fav poems from you.

*Wiggles.* GO you!!! ^______^

w000000tness. Nice ones there Des ^^. The Shrine's personal poem writer:D. Keep it up *hugs*

hmmm, Des, looks like ya really had ya heart put into this poem, not like ya dun do it on all the time...makes me think of someone i know...*teary eyed* damn ya good poetry!

love ya

thanks everyone very very much~!^_^ *is happy*

Changed

So much has changed in
the last few months.
Alot has ranged from
light to dusk.
So many thoughts have
rushed through my mind;
too many faults have
been by my side...

I've experienced heart-break and pain...
Some happy times I'd never change.
I've fallen in love once or twice;
damn.. those times were so nice...
but when it was over,
I felt despair,
and sadness was everywhere...
my mind wasnt my own,
and depression and stolen my soul..
all those changes I couldnt control.

I've matured through body and mind.
I'm now different and know to strive.
My emotions are akward,
my feelings are weird..
If my life were a car,
it'd be hard to steer.

Still, the changes come and go...
I've heard the saying; " You reap what you sew. "
I'm still learning right from wrong,
I'm still yearning to know it all...
Until then I'll keep in the race,
and I'll remember this;
" The earth is a sad sad place... "

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lol, I had a rap beat in my head when I wrote this.. enjoy :)

Dang.... your poems are pretty cool ^.~
Then again, I also like poetry I can make a connection with, and I have a very easy time connecting with your poems o_O

Heh, I like that 'Changes' poem as it really tells people a lot about you even if it is pretty personal. Oh well... I like the comparsions you put in your poem like- "You reap what you sew."

That one is ruley! Were you listening to a Linkin Park song when you wrote this poem as that song says that thingie a lot. Anywayz, yus I like this poem a lot as it was written very well.

*Claps.* GO you!!XD~

thanx Amelia and Matt for your compliments ^_^

now... let's take a sharp turn from Depression Land and move to Love Land for a bit, mmmkay? *wooh*

Again

The night I felt really happy,
was the night I was with you...
My mind was finally calm, at peace.
And my feelings, for once, were true.

We sat together, comfortably
hugging.. cuddling... snuggling
Your soft kisses made me hypnotized
I was under your spell...
Your warm breath on my neck,
I knew only Heaven.. never Hell.

All I thought about was this feeling,
pure peace, and at last happiness...

then came the moment...
the one I had been yearning for.
Never knowing the exact moment to say it...
Never knowing when it'd be true...
but now, at last, I knew it
so I said it...
"... I love you."

You smiled, you knew I meant it
and I knew it, too
so then you said the words to me;
"I love you, too"

You know now how I feel...
And that you've stolen my soul...
Please, say it again.
Put me under your control...
tell me that you love me again,
you know that it's true...
I'm not afraid to say it now...
I love you.

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I wrote that about 2 weeks ago or a week and a half ago, back when I was actually sane, lol.

enjoy :)

Getting good enough for archives i reckon. Are these getting better each time or is it just me? Keep it up ^-^.

Yus, it would rock if Desi's poems went in to the archives. *Dances around.* Heh, I really liked that poem!

Yus, the land of love is much more better than the land of depression I reckon. w00t!! Can you take me there?

*Sighs.* I need to get out of depressed land, badly. To me you've always been sane to me Desi, sorta...

Yus, I really like that poem was it was perky, had the right emotions for lovey dovey stuff and it's well-written. Heh, it's so romantic! *Claps really fun like Japanese people do.*

Ah, GO you!!!!! XD~

Cool I like them. In your last one, please don't hitt me for saying this, I loved the way you rhymed too with too! Sorry, couldn't help it. I'm not even sure if it was meant to rhyme. But I like your poems.

LOL, I wont hit ya Psuedes, I'm too nice ;)

thank you guys for commenting :) I really appriciate it... thank you

Well, I'm trying to stay clear of all that's depressing, so we're gonna stay in Love Land for a while, lol. This next poem I wrote about a day ago... I hope you like it :D

Enchanted Flame

Enchanted flame rests on the candle,
the flame is that of my soul;
the burning fire... my hidden desire.
Enchanted mind control.

Your en-dearing kiss, rest on my lips;
prettier than the flower
frangrence sweeter than the roses...
Enchanted magi power...
never is it un-noticed.

Holding me close, finding lost notes
memories that we'll share...
I'm knowing that you care.
Full-filling undone deeds... full-filling all my needs.
Colours of love; pure white as a dove
Enchanted is my heart.

Hypnotizing gazes, charming all lost traces
Warming to my mind
and staying by my side
Cleansing to my soul
Enchantment that's my own...

You are a thief, beyond belief
because you've stolen my heart...
let our body's grow as one,
our thoughts to be brighter than the sun;
so we'll never be apart...
Enchanting as the rain
my heart is yours, again...

Enchanted flame rests on the candle
the flame is that of my soul;
the burning fire... my hidden desire.
Enchanted mind control...

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I wish I was able to write more like I wrote this one... I'm in love with it, lol

Great:D *hugs* You must have a lot to think about to do these *sucks at poems* Be proud of yerself. Be happay^^

w00tness!! We get to stay in love land!! *Wiggles.*

Anywayz, OMG that poem is romantic, ruley, emotional, enchanting (sorries, couldn't resist), rhymed well and written great. Yus, it's probably my fav poem of yours Desi so far. GO you!!!! ^________^

*hugs Kie and Amelia* thanx :)

yah... I've been thinking about lots of stuffs, so tis why I've been writing alot and often. It doesnt take me an aweful long time to write them, so sometimes I think they arent good... anywho, my next poem I wrote today.

Confusion yet Pleasure

Lonely nights I stay awake...
wishing I could see your darling face.
I'm sad because you are away...
such difference in time;
it's what I hate.
I want to see you then and there.
I want to feel and know you care.
I sit and wait as time goes by...
Hours pass, but still I strive...
You know I miss you very much.

Boring days I sit alone...
Anxious for night to come,
so I can talk to you, and feel happy.
So I can know your okay,
and then I'll feel the same...

and maybe I'll get the courage to tell you...
to tell you how I feel.
and that I like you very much...

Sometimes fear comes from these thoughts...
and I'm scared to tell you what and how I feel.

What if our friendship dies because of it?
What if I forget to strive because of it?
I dont want that to happen...
I'd hate it if I wasnt your friend;
I wouldnt be able to take it...
and I'd never last until the end.

Tears sometimes stream down my face...
when I dont know the answer to my questions.
when I dont know what will happen...

Bottling my feelings for you up inside of me is causing so much pain.
I never thought I'd have to suffer through these thoughts again..
I know if I dont let them out I'm going to break down...
It's going to eat me up inside and diminish all that's alive...
So much joy you bring to me and yet you do not know,
that my feelings for you still begin to grow...

And yet confusion sweeps over me and I begin to cry.
these lonely nights are hurting and tearing me up from the inside.
my heart and soul are dying as my tears begin to stream...
the only thing I feel to do is just to drop and scream...

Confusion this is bringing to me...
yet pleasure because of how good you are.
Never did I know I could feel this way for you...
I never thought just hearing your name could make my day complete...
and seeing your darling face.. it's meeting all my needs.

I want to tell you how I feel...

but then again.. I cant...
the results might be unbareable...
so still I sit and think.
I guess it'll have to stay this way a little longer.
I'll still talk to you at nights... and maybe during the day..
But I guess that in the end; all will be okay.

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Mixed feelings are in this one, as you can tell by the title... I hope ya'll like it. ;)

*thinks she writes too much* :p

I come back and there are soooooooo many poems! o____0;;
Okay. Here comes the feedback! :D

I can totally relate to "My Tears." I loved that poem. It's well written, emotional and I can totally relate. I liked that.

"Changed" is an amazing poem. Sad though, but I like the rythum to it.

Now, in "Again," it's such a romantic and descriptive piece! *sniffles*

"Enchanted Flame" is beautiful work, my favorite poem that I've seen from you. One of your best works so far. ^___^

And lastly, "Confusion yet Pleasure" is such a romantic piece. I reaaalllly like it, and I am going through something similar! I can relate to this poem as well. I want to see more of your work OZ! :D

Heh, I really liked that poem Desi as I can see where your inspiration comes from and it's full of so many emotions. It rocks! It's written really well with care and I really like it just like all opf your other poems.

Nope, I don't think you write too much. If it's something you enjoy and you're good at it keep it up I say! *Wiggles.* ^___^

Yes, i think you've written more poems than anyone else. The shrine's poet:D. Wonder where people like you go from here? First the shrine, then the world MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ^^

Anywho, another great piece of work *huggles*

yush.. I shall take over the world with mah poetry... hehehe.. HEHEHE.. MWAHAHAHA!!!! o.o' .... lol

thankee everyone for your comments :)

This next poem I wrote today ^_^;;;; I was listening to a rock song while writing it... so my poem is a song/poem =D

Blind Love

So long have I been seeking
all my life have I been searching...
searching for what's true,
a love that is true...
Never did I realize,
never could have known...
all along my love's been with me,
and that love has been you...

But still I am terrified
and still I am scared...
I dont know what to do,
I never knew you cared...
you say that you'll always be there
you say you'll never leave...
but still I dont know what to do...
I dont know what to believe...

Drowning in my thoughts,
I'm resisting all your love.
I'm hesitating though I dont know it,
In my heart I'm running away...
I'll lose this battle sooner or later...
but I dont want to lose you.
Will I ever know what's true?

I'm seeing all these other people...
their all with their true love;
Jealousy is raging over,
anger fills my mind...
Wishing I could have that love,
all their peace and care...
How could I have missed it?
My love's already there...

Your with me in my heart,
Your with me in my mind...
Always you have been there;
been there by my side.
But still I'm not sure of it all...
still I am confused...
I dont think that I'll win;
and I know that I will lose.

Drowning in my thoughts,
I'm resisting all your love.
I'm hesitating though I dont know it,
In my heart I'm running away...
I'll lose this battle sooner or later...
but I dont want to lose you.
Will I ever know what's true...?

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enjoy :)

You're so talented. I would never be able to write poetry. That's why I stick to watching people cut each other up with light bulbs! YEAH! Anyways, you are very good. It's fun reading your stuff. Touche (or whatever it is that those people say)!

w00t, another love poem *likes the love poems the bestest* Keep it up keep it up :D.

WOW, I like that poem, a lot. It would make a good love song. The words fix together perfectly and the poem justs flows.

The rhyming is great as well and I really like the emotions you put in to it. Yup, that poem rocks!! *Dances around and wiggles.* ^____^

thanks everyone ^_^ **nudge nudge wink wink**

I wrote two poems today.. though I'm only going to post one for now. I've been listening to Eminem - Halie's Song and Blink182 - Stay Together For the Kids, so the two songs are kind of my inspiration.

Remembering

The memories of all that happened...
you know they fill me with tears.
I'm not afraid to admit I miss you
and deep in my heart I still care.

I'm not scared to say sometimes I cry,
thinking of what could have been;
but what makes me even sadder...
is the thought of you forgetting,
the thought of you regretting.
I dont want our memories as an illusion,
but I'm sick of all this confusion...
I'm sick of sleepless nights,
I'm tired of these slow days...
and I hate myself for thinking that
you'd forget all of our old ways.
I know you'll always remember...
and I hope you know I'll do the same.

To forget you would be like
losing all hope in Life.
But to remember that I lost you...
makes me want to sit and cry.

I know I'll always miss you
and at times I may think of you still...
I'll miss all our days together
and how many of my wishes were fulfilled.

You know I'll cry while thinking
and I'll even cry while dreaming.
I might regret losing you,
Hell.. I know I will.

I hope you know I'll miss you,
and I'll remember when I kissed you,
and that deep in my heart I still care.
I'll remember how you were always there.

As I lay in my bed at night,
my tears falling on my pillow,
I'll remember your darling face..
I'll remember all our ways.
And I'll never forget you.
You know I'll never regret you.

Just dont say goodbye, cuz in time it'll be alright.
Fate will run her course
and they'll be no last resort.

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no one knows who that poem is about, and lets just keep it that way ;)

(EDIT: well looky here.. this was my 500th post. Oh, what joy! o.o lol)

Originally posted by Majestic Soul
thanks everyone ^_^ **nudge nudge wink wink**

I wrote two poems today.. though I'm only going to post one for now. I've been listening to Eminem - Halie's Song and Blink182 - Stay Together For the Kids, so the two songs are kind of my inspiration.

no one knows who that poem is about, and lets just keep it that way ;)

(EDIT: well looky here.. this was my 500th post. Oh, what joy! o.o lol)

Woah... Two poems!? GO you!!

I'm seriously thinking of printing of your poems Dessy as they are ruley. BTW, this is me being honest and not trying too hard to be nice, lol. Oh, try to post up your other poem ASAP.

OMG, I was listening to Eminem's Hailie's (I think it's actually spelt like that) song yesterday afternoon as well but only for a minute. That's soooo freaky though. *Gasps*

I might know who that poem might be about but I won't tell as that would be wrong and I'm probably wrong anywayz, lol. *Wink wink nudge nudge* Heh, GO you!!

Congrats on making 500 posts but I've made over 1000 and I bet you can't beat that in a day Dessy, lol. Anywayz, on to comments about your poem... Heh, it's really good and it's full of good emotions and I think I had tears in my eyes.

No jokes. Woe is me... The rhyming and wording of the poem is excellent.

Yup, I like this poem a lot as well. GO you!! *Claps and wiggles*

Ah, yeah... Long reply, I know :uh?:

w000000000000000000t. I might be running out of things to say here about how good your work is ^-^. What else can i say other than how great it is? Keep up the great work *hugglez*

Originally posted by Rinoa-chan
I might know who that poem might be about but I won't tell as that would be wrong and I'm probably wrong anywayz, lol. *Wink wink nudge nudge* Heh, GO you!!


lol.. you most likely know who it's about since you know alot about me =P

thanks you guys ^_^ *huggles Kie back* I dunt mind if you dont have nuthin to say about my work, as I just like writing it... feeeeeeeeeeeeelingssss (where'd that come from? o.o I need sleep >XD)

here's the other poem I wrote that day.. tis about the same subject and same person. I hope ya'z like it :) ;

Illusion?

The summer granted wishes,
and Fate lead me to you.
You helped me with my troubles;
and showed me what to do.
You were the answers to my problems
the angel of my lost prayers...
My knight and shining armour...
You saved me from dispair.

The months we were 'together'
are one's I truely loved.
I'd never change the past,
or what the future held.
Like a poker game,
these were the cards I delt.

I couldnt control Fate:
or her mind teasing games...
and that's when my thoughts kicked in
and started messing with my brain.
I started having mixed feelings...
I started to get scared.
But how could I have been afraid,
when you said you'd always be there?

Maybe those were the words...
the one's that got me going.
It made my thoughts run wild,
and, to me, the relationship was slowing.

Week's had passed since you
told me how much you cared.
I may not have seemed like it,
but I was still scared.
My worries filled my mind,
all hope was set aside...
I knew this was the end.
To me you were just a friend.

So long I kept my feelings in
since I didnt want you to get hurt.
To see your pain would harm me
but not telling would make things worse.

Longer I kept my thoughts bottled up,
until that day arrived.
No longer could I take it
No longer did I keep it inside
I told you how I felt...
that I wanted it to end.
Too much confusion had got to me...
I couldnt take the frustration,
I cared for you, you know I did...
but I had to tell.
For if I didnt, life would be like Hell.

Now more time has passed...

I wonder how you're dealing?
I wonder how you're feeling?
... do you still think of me?

You know.. I loved when we were together...
but there was too much confusion.
Can I ask though...
please remember that you were my dream...
Dont let our memories turn into an illusion

Originally posted by Majestic Soul

Like a poker game,
these were the cards I delt.


Heh, I really like that bit of the poem as I actually know how to play poker. It's all about lying which I am very good at, lol ;) Anywayz, I really liked that poem as woah, it's full of heaps of good emotions.

That poem really shows a lot about you. Maybe even too much but oh well... I truely felt like I was going on a journey which showed me the door to your life.

The wording of the poem is good as well and yus, I still know who it's about and still I won't tell. I guess I do know a lot about you then Dessy and yus, you do need more sleep.

Yup, that poem is one of my faves out of your collection Dessy. *Claps and wiggles* GO you!!

Ah, I said ~way~ too much. I will just go now... :o

lol.. havent posted a poem in quite some time.. or so it seems =P thanx Amelia for yer compliment :) I've been writing alot, but mostly poems to mah boyfriend at school... tee hee, he thinks I write good ^_^

this next poem I wrote cuz I felt like shit today lol

Pain

This pain I'm taking in
a drop of blood,
it's worse than sin...
This slow and hurtful breath,
eternal wounds
the thought of death...

Sorrow and pity amognst my control,
tormenting my mind, body, and soul.

Why must this feeling be brought onto me?

The weight and baggage from my past
is ganging up on me;
crushing and torturing my body
and killing what all I believe

A single cut upon my skin
is causing so much pain

Light from Heaven, up above
is shining down on me...
Are you up there, God?
Do you hear my plea?

Like a fallen angel, with broken wings
I look back to God as the skies sing.
As the stars and clouds pass;
I wonder how long this pain will last.

A drop of blood mixes with my tears,
as I witness all my fears....

This pain I'm taking in.

*sniffles* What a beautiful poem Desi. I can relate to it to, btw. =D I like it. Ish emotional, and it touches the heart with it's rawness.

Keep it up chica. ^________^

Yep, like Drea (I luv your prettiful siggie girlie and it works, lol!) said your poem is quite emotional and I nearly cried. No jokes... It;'s a good poem and once again I can relate to it well.

I still don't know what poem is your best yet so I have to read them throughout sometime and that will be quite a task but I mean that in a good way. Anywayz, yup GO Dessy and I hope you continue on writing as it is your talent. *Claps and wiggles*

Yeah, and your boyfriend has a good taste in poetry but I really hope he's not saying all that to get on your good side. That would just be EV0L!!! :uh?:

I really like that last poem. I can relate to those kind of feelings, and you portray the thoughts and emotions very well. I can almost form an image in my head of that last part. It's very effective, and very well written. Good poem!

thanks you guys =D I think everyone has been really behind me and my writings, so thanx :) omg yaay I feel special! XD

Past That Kills

Memories of my past
causes pain that makes me bleed...
slowly so that I see
how much pain is in each tear
how much pain there is in me.

stains in my life
that I know wont wash away
for I'll always remember it all...
in my heart and in my soul,
wherever these thoughts will stay.

These endless scars, this suffering
and everlasting screams
have been placed in my mind
never to be forgotten
for my mind is holding greed.

memories of my past
causes pain that makes me bleed...
slowly so that I see
how much pain is in each tear
how much pain there is in me...

on my fears this feeling feeds

Heh, that's okay Dessy. As for that new poem of yours it's emotional (as always. I know I always say it but it's true. All your poems have great emotions in them), strung together well and it sorta made me cry (god, I'm sensitive) but that's a very good thing, mind you. *Claps*

Yup, I liked that poem as well but somehow it wasn't as good as the others... It's still great though. GO you!!!! ^__________^

:) happy poem now...

Perfect

darkness sneaks around each corner
startling those around
stars are shooting through the sky
winking without a sound

your hands are wrapped around my waist
as you pull me close to you...
Dear Lord... you've done it
you've made my prayers come true

the night is late as the moon shines bright
and the clouds slowly pass above
silent sounds in the distance are humming
but disterbence this does not do
for all I care for at this moment
is how perfect it is with you...

your dark brown eyes shine bright
as I gaze in them with such lust...
your comfort is all I need right now
your care.. and your trust

I feel as if all pain is gone
as you hold me in your arms
I know nothing will hurt me
nothing will pass my way
for your protection is around me completely
and all my fears have gone away...

this moment is so perfect
as I know I truely care for you...
Thank God... it's happened
my dreams have come true

Oh, that poem is pretty good considering it is perky and written with all the right emotions. Heh, your poem made me smile Dessy cos it was soo cheerful and romantic. Um, that's all I have to say as right now I'm just saying all the things I usually say.

The poem was written very well though. *Claps for Dessy* Good job, as always! ^_^;;

:) again, thank you Amelia ^^

this one I wrote about someone, we've been real good friends for about a year now... dude, ya know who ya are! ^^

Living a Life in This Past Year

Every second seemed so perfect
every minute was like Heaven...

Stars passed so quickly
sleeping in their moonlit sky
Clouds seemed to burst
at the moment I looked to your eyes

The moment I met you I felt I'd known you before...
and even though I was so young I knew we would endure.
Such a close friendship made me know how true you were...

My heart was broken into pieces
as I thought they were never to heal...
but your care was placed into me,
and gave me this feeling I thought I'd never feel...
Hell on earth was my motivation,
and I felt so dark and dreary...
but your trust was placed into me,
and gave me this pureness that was never near me.

Shades as bright as Heaven's golden gates...

you were my angel... my warrior
you helped me see through it all,
so now I'm here to repay you
to say how much I care in return
and how much I love you...

true feelings about my loving friend,
I need you in my life.
true feelings for my loving friend...
I love you in my life.

God I now know is true,
to have had the grace to send me you...

Peace amongst my child soul
love for you,
so true,
and out of control.

Living a life in this past year
has been so odd and tempting
but meeting you has showed me
how love can heal most anything...

Oh, I like that poem especially the paragraph at the end as the words are placed together really well, it rhymes well and it sounds good. Seeing as I know who it is about it gave me more of a insight into um, 'him' and you which is good as a poem is meant to explain lovey-dovey thingies like you did in that poem you just posted up Dessy. Heh, and the emotions, words, rhyming and the overall poem was very good.

Well done! *Passes Dessy a chocolate chip muffin* Enjoy hun! ^______________^

Those are really,really good I like them alot. I should check in here a lot more often. keep us posted i'm interested to hear more.

aww thank ya guys very much. :)

Gawd I wish my poetry wasnt gettin to be so damned depressing... here's my next one. This one is mostly about how I'm too afraid to tell this boy in school how I feel about him.. I like him alot, but I havent got the guts to tell him. rumour is he likes me too.. aww youth

Choice

My heart is bursting from in me...
my soul begins to ache.
My eyes and throat are watery,
for this choice I cannot make...
all happiness is fake.

My mind is always turning,
all thoughts inside are twirling;
my head is like a vocano, ready to erupt.

Feel my hands, their trembling...
see my cold stricken face.
All colours turn to black,
For this choice I cannot make...
love is just a dream
All happiness is fake...

blood with tears mixed with anger from inside...
it's killing me so slowly,
and threatening me beside.

why do I feel this way?
why is pain at my door?
it's hard to say.. I like it
I've never felt this before.
Slowly I close my eyes...
slowly the pain goes away...
How come I'm so crazy?
I wish this pain would stay.

all happiness is fake

Those were good keep them up ^_^

Dessy, your recent poem was pretty good as it was full of good emotions, great words and readers can bond with the poem. I felt it could be slightly better though but overall it's an excellent poem. *Claps*

Once again, good job Dessy! ^_^

The last one is decent dezzy, but there isn't much organization or flow to it. I like the theme and the rhyming... but the stanza's are too disorganized..

thanks all ^-^ critism and complements, yay.

this one I just wrote...

Here I Lay

Here I lay upon my bed - shedding tears endlessly
Here I stay, this day I dread
my fears shake me fiercfully

I hurt myself to see if I would react in the same way
I hurt myself to see if life would stay the same
my cries of pain would say that what I did was wrong...
these pathetic attempts for happiness shows that I'm not strong -
and my ways to heal thy heart makes me think that I'm insane

my cries have come in more sobs than anything before
and my world is crumbling before my very eyes...
I've caused it all and now I pay,
here I lay to die

staring to the stars I see how foolish that I am
turning my head so slightly to hear the wind whisper in my ear
my tears trickle more for this whisper is what I fear
Alone in this darkness I cry out your name
I hurt myself to see if I would react in the same way
I hurt myself to see if life would stay the same...

Their laughter pierces me, and their eyes are all to scare
maybe I deserved it...
maybe that's why your not there
the angel's wings protect me so why do I back away?
Fallen from up above...
this is where I lay
My prayers go up to heaven
this is all my plea,
my life have I ruined with all I've done to thee?

shaken by the thunder,
I close my eyes this day
breathing heavily as I sleep,
this is where I lay

Heh, that's a great poem but it sort of made me sad too. *Weeps and shrugs* I guess I'm just emotional.

I like your rhyming (sp) skills and your play on words. Excellent job! *Claps* ^_^

I know dat one is pretty sad.... I tried to up my happiness a tad but it's a bit hard to; here ya'll go.

Sun

It's so cold out...
everything is turning frozen in mid air
choices I cannot make on my own
no one understands that I need someone
and yet long to be alone
my wishes frighten me so much
how I wish to have such care, yet am afraid to gain it..
this world is turning so unfair

The flowers turn to dust before the break of dawn
my heart sinks before my eyes open to see light
because the coldness hasnt left
and it's still there from the night.
The mist and fog do not fully cover the footsteps in the mud
and so my mind still sees all that's in my past..
it's so hard to forget so much when you feel that you wont last

How much I wish the sun will come out to brighten up my day
to dry these tears I always cry,
to lighten up my face.
How I hope the rain will drop to wash away my pain
so life will stop these tempting lies that the world has became
I miss the sun that shines so bright
how I wish for you to see happiness in my eyes..

Wow, that was great. I haven't posted here in a while. Excellent work up to now :) :).

What a fantastic poem! You have such a unique style that is wonderful to read, and you are an extremely talented poet. I can relate to the feelings you portray in "Sun", and I love the way your phrase everything. Good job, I'll definately have to check back here more often now that I'm back here on FFS.

Great poem Dessy. I really like your use of emotions in all your poems and they always paint a prettiful picture for the reader. Even if they aren't always cheerful they make a good read and people can relate to them better anyho cos no-one is ever completely happy.

Keep it up! *Claps* ^_^