Sarah
04-08-2015, 10:21 PM
i posted this in the other thread, but will post it here in case anyone missed it.
i've been out of town because my girlfriend was having a bit of a crisis so i can't be on the forums. i'm working on adding the donations.
i'm... horrified at what i came back to here. i'll make every attempt to be as transparent with all of you as i always have been, i'll answer any questions you have.
this misinformation is coming from a group that's harassed, stalked, doxxed, sent myself and my family death threats. you can read about what happened to me here: I Set Out To Expose A Hate Movement In Gaming?So They Set Out To Destroy My Life | Ravishly (http://tinyurl.com/mmdseet)
Every piece of information they uncovered was used to harass. I was sent those pre-transition photos and told I would never be a woman. My dox and deadname were repeated loudly and repeatedly, even by the biggest figureheads of their movement. One them openly encouraged people to harass me with said photos; even before that encouragement, it had already happened hundreds of times. Photos of my immediate family members that had passed away were sent to me with vile messages—some blaming me for their deaths. I was tweeted pictures of my house, along with messages asking if I would rather be shot or stabbed. Threatening emails were sent to my friends, some of which were severe enough to require contact with the police.
My websites were taken down from distributed denial of service attacks. GamerGate websites openly posted instructions on how to illegally gain access to my servers via SQL injection exploits; this was used to leak chat logs between a small group of friends from almost a decade ago. Campaigns were launched to bombard advertisers on my sites with lies in an attempt to get them to pull out.
Boards that encouraged SWATs posted my information, including my address and that of my family’s. Numerous critics of GamerGate had already been victims of SWATs, one of which resulted in over twenty police being deployed. The board responsible bragged frequently about a woman’s dog being killed by the police in one incident.
My brother passed away six years ago; he left me Sadie, his pitbull. For weeks after my information appeared on that board I would wake up in cold sweats fearing I would lose her.
these are the people this information is coming from. they're harassing me and making up lies about me. yes, i am in debt, which is why i can't cover the costs myself anymore-- that does NOT mean the money for donations goes to that, it never has. not a penny of it goes to my debt.
the very people harassing me are the reason the donations situation is as it is now. i had to pay for additional server security, DDoS mitigation, frequent security audits, additional backup services and much more. they've also bombarded our advertisers with lies trying to get them to pull out.
i've run this site for over a decade now. i've put thousands upon thousands of my own dollars into this site as well as thousands of hours of time. i know i haven't been around as much lately, and i feel very guilty for that-- running a site for this long takes a huge toll emotionally. it's kind of heartbreaking to see after this much time and everything i've put into it, people are going to believe a group of trolls and villainize me over their lies instead of standing by me.
i'm going to make sure ffs survives, and as i said earlier, i plan for this to be the last time we'll ever need donations.
i'll answer any questions you all have, and i'll be transparent as possible. but please, before you believe any of that bullshit, know that you're believing people who have tried to had me swatted, have sent death and rape threats to myself and my family, and have grossly and repeatedly violated my privacy, and have overall made a game out of trying to destroy my life. i've had to contact the police multiple times because of what's been going on.
i'm going to stick by FFS no matter what. i hope you all do, too. i promise to be around more and answer any questions you have. please, read the above article. look at who you're choosing to believe. these are people that aren't doing everything they can do harass and terrorize me.
i've been out of town because my girlfriend was having a bit of a crisis so i can't be on the forums. i'm working on adding the donations.
i'm... horrified at what i came back to here. i'll make every attempt to be as transparent with all of you as i always have been, i'll answer any questions you have.
this misinformation is coming from a group that's harassed, stalked, doxxed, sent myself and my family death threats. you can read about what happened to me here: I Set Out To Expose A Hate Movement In Gaming?So They Set Out To Destroy My Life | Ravishly (http://tinyurl.com/mmdseet)
Every piece of information they uncovered was used to harass. I was sent those pre-transition photos and told I would never be a woman. My dox and deadname were repeated loudly and repeatedly, even by the biggest figureheads of their movement. One them openly encouraged people to harass me with said photos; even before that encouragement, it had already happened hundreds of times. Photos of my immediate family members that had passed away were sent to me with vile messages—some blaming me for their deaths. I was tweeted pictures of my house, along with messages asking if I would rather be shot or stabbed. Threatening emails were sent to my friends, some of which were severe enough to require contact with the police.
My websites were taken down from distributed denial of service attacks. GamerGate websites openly posted instructions on how to illegally gain access to my servers via SQL injection exploits; this was used to leak chat logs between a small group of friends from almost a decade ago. Campaigns were launched to bombard advertisers on my sites with lies in an attempt to get them to pull out.
Boards that encouraged SWATs posted my information, including my address and that of my family’s. Numerous critics of GamerGate had already been victims of SWATs, one of which resulted in over twenty police being deployed. The board responsible bragged frequently about a woman’s dog being killed by the police in one incident.
My brother passed away six years ago; he left me Sadie, his pitbull. For weeks after my information appeared on that board I would wake up in cold sweats fearing I would lose her.
these are the people this information is coming from. they're harassing me and making up lies about me. yes, i am in debt, which is why i can't cover the costs myself anymore-- that does NOT mean the money for donations goes to that, it never has. not a penny of it goes to my debt.
the very people harassing me are the reason the donations situation is as it is now. i had to pay for additional server security, DDoS mitigation, frequent security audits, additional backup services and much more. they've also bombarded our advertisers with lies trying to get them to pull out.
i've run this site for over a decade now. i've put thousands upon thousands of my own dollars into this site as well as thousands of hours of time. i know i haven't been around as much lately, and i feel very guilty for that-- running a site for this long takes a huge toll emotionally. it's kind of heartbreaking to see after this much time and everything i've put into it, people are going to believe a group of trolls and villainize me over their lies instead of standing by me.
i'm going to make sure ffs survives, and as i said earlier, i plan for this to be the last time we'll ever need donations.
i'll answer any questions you all have, and i'll be transparent as possible. but please, before you believe any of that bullshit, know that you're believing people who have tried to had me swatted, have sent death and rape threats to myself and my family, and have grossly and repeatedly violated my privacy, and have overall made a game out of trying to destroy my life. i've had to contact the police multiple times because of what's been going on.
i'm going to stick by FFS no matter what. i hope you all do, too. i promise to be around more and answer any questions you have. please, read the above article. look at who you're choosing to believe. these are people that aren't doing everything they can do harass and terrorize me.