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During the light I vail my anguish
When it rains, I dance with the tears of the heavens
Within the darkest shades of night
I become something that cannot be simply described
A mystery to myself
I could be seen as cynical
I might be viewed as shallow
Lonely, oh so lonely
Trusting is failing
Friendship a lie
Promises broken
Forever made-up
These thoughts have filled my void
Hollowed me out like a jack-o-lantern
I�m blind to everything
Yet so very aware
Betrayal is eminent and brings chaos
Before chaos, you must lose
Losing comes after winning
Once you�ve won you can never win again
Destroying my soul with bitterness
Overflowing my heart with shame
I gape for more but there�s only blame
There�s only so much one can miss
Deaths all around there is no escaping
Gather up yourself for the embracing
Uncomfortable escaping
Curled up in a cornier shaking
Nothings the same
Everyone�s changing
Alone, quivering in a shadowy abyss
Hidden by the comforting darkness
Beaten down by the disasters that each day brings.
As if, victimized by deep bee stings
To my broken spirit
For my tainted mind
With this battered body
I conclude
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Day by day more seems to fade away
How long?
Forgotten so much…
How long?
Reason perished in a flame of darkness
How long?
Feeling melted away like snow
How long?
Purpose lost in the shadows of night
How long?
Desire drained like a summer sun
How long?
Hunger come’s but once a day
How long?
Hope vanished out of grasp
How long has?
Time has become lonesome and boring
How long has it?
Friendship has been highly over rated
How long has it?
Self worth pummeled by what?
How long has it been?
Cannot hold on.. forever to nothing..
I know this stuff comes from your heart Michelle, and I for one am glad that you are not Lisa (no offense to her). Is written very well and very emotional.
Though, as Loki said, a bit depressing.
Very good, nonetheless. I like them.
In the mean time, keep your chin up, and know that there are people who love you, even though you don’t always feel it, and you don’t always see it, but sometimes it takes a long time of not seeing it, to learn to truly see it. If what I am saying doesn’t make sense to you now, it might just later. If it doesn’t later, well at least you had a really kick ass set of poems… I mean. "The Soul was Killed With the Beast" doesn’t have anything on either of your two untitled pieces. Your’s are truly expressive, and you know what emotions are being expressed, yet there is still some depth to peel into. I’ll surely read these again, and I’ll also read any others you write. Perhaps one day, you’ll write one for joy.
With lotsa love,
Zachron
P.S. Jello!