Squalls_lover
06-02-2005, 11:55 AM
Hi everyone. Some of you may remember this, whilst others are new to it. I finally got my hands on my very first fanfic again through a very old reader of my fics. Her Screen name here is Princess Rinoa, and she's emailed me my fiction after having read that announcement. Thank You So Much Princess Rinoa.
I'm really glad I got it back. It's not great or anything, it's just that it's my first fanfic, and it has a lot of memories attached. When i re-read it I feel myself remembering things I thought I had forgotten, so it's got a lot of emotional value to me, even if it is inferior in many ways.
So on this note...I'm thinking of reposting it here as it is nowhere to be found in it's original home, ffwa. I think I might have deleted it at once occasion, thinking I won't ever write again, and once I think my brother deleted it from the archives when it was fully completed in 2002.
I'm sorry about that, but with that thought in mind, I want to post it in it's original state, without any changes, and then maybe later, when I have time, I can do a revamp on it. But that's all for now from me, thanks for reading.
P.S. I'll post multiple chapters, as they were quite short back then to make up for space.
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Silent Sexy Seduction
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Chapter 1
Brisk, cool, breezes swept over the lonesome fields that lay just outside Balamb
Garden... long shadows stretching over it, converting the normal colour of the field into a darker shade. Rinoa gazed up to Squall who stood beside her..."Squall...why are we here?"
Squall gazed down to the grass and didn't answer. Closing his eyes, his expression
changed, a small urge of hate vibrating in his hand as he clenched it... He looked up again, his eyes burning with an impulsive curiosity and solid determination. Rinoa watched him, not knowing what his behavior was indicating.
"Squall, tell me, what's wrong? Why did you take me here...it's getting dark.."
Squall gazed at her, his expression softening.
"Rinoa...I want to know your past...I want to know...what was between you and
Seifer...and I took you here to be alone with you..."
Rinoa's glance dropped and her reluctancy made Squall step up to her so close that, there may have been literally no space between them anymore. Squall slipped his arms around her gently and looked her in the eyes, his usually rare smile inhabiting his lips.
"You can tell me, Rinoa. You past won't change the present...I'll...I'll always...you
know what I mean..."
Rinoa's silence made him frown a little.
"Squall..."
Squall closed his eyes, sighed and realized he was gripping her tightly and almost
hurting her. He blinked and let go of her.
Rubbing her arm gently Rinoa looked at him, expressionless as ever...
"Rinoa I'm sorr-" She was gone...
Back at Balamb Garden...
Irvine almost dropped his Rifle as Rinoa rushed past him. "Whoa!!" he grasped his Rifle tighter and gazed after her as she disappeared into the Dormitories. Selphie approached Irvine, holding two hot-dogs and followed his gaze.
"What's up. Irvy?"
She tilted her head, wondering. Irvine shrugged, "I don't know, not really. I think that was Rinoa who just ran past me."
He looked back to Selphie and took his hot-dog, flashing a dazzling smile at her.
Smiling back, Selphie bit into her hot-dog and sat herself down on the bench,
listening to the hushed tones of the water fountain behind her.
"Hmm hmm these hot-dogs sure taste great!" Selphie giggled. Irvine sat down and
leaned against the bench finishing his hot-dog off.
"Hmm yeah, I just love sitting here instead of that hot, stuffy Cafeteria." Irvine closed
his eyes, the hat tipped slightly covering his eyes as he relaxed himself a bit.
A gust of wind hurdled past Irvine and Selphie as Zell speeded past them into the
Cafeteria. A few odd moments later he returned looking as gloomy as he always did,
when the hot-dogs were sold out.
"Damn! I missed them at Lunch and now this! Jeez man! This SUCKS!"
Irvine chuckled, shaking his head. Zell sighed, winked with his hand, and went off to
the Dorms.
Irvine grinned at Selphie "Poor guy..." Selphie giggled wiping her mouth with a tissue.
Gazing down, hands in pockets, a solemn expression covering Squalls face like a mask, he walked by towards the Dorms...
Irvine looked at Selphie, seeming somewhat worried about Rinoa and Squall.
"Umm...uh...I would really want to know what is up with those two...hmm..." Selphie nodded and watched Squall disappear around the Training Center area...knowing he was headed towards the Dorms...
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Chapter 2
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Squall lay watching the ceiling, or at least pretending to, in his room, which was filled with utter silence and darkness... He lay awake, the images of Rinoa flashing back and forth, a few puzzling, mysterious reminiscent incidents returning to him...
"Seifer..." he closed his eyes, sighing heavily, the inner curiosity killing him softly. Drifting slowly into sleep, his restless dreams were interrupted by a few, nearby footsteps.
Murmuring he rolled over and fell into a deeper sleep, ignoring the footsteps...
Meanwhile...
"Raziel...no...no..please...just don't..." Rinoa's weak, reluctant attempts to stop him were useless, somehow. His almost white-blondish hair, drifted slightly across his face with the wind, as his deep green eyes seemed to be piercing into her black ones.
"Don't worry..." he placed his hand on her cheek once again, and drew closer, pressing his lips gently over hers. Rinoa, as if it was instinct, slipped her arms around his neck, pressed him closer and returned his forbidden kisses.
Their kissing continued, while the cloud filled sky gave way for the stars and moon to wink and glimmer over them on the Balcony of the secret area.
A sharp intake of breath ripped the silence as Squall, immersed in anxious sweat, awoke with a jolt, panting and wheezing, his eyes wide as he sat there staring at the wall in disbelief...
Raising a hand to his forehead and sighing, he uttered Rinoa's name... "I hate these stupid nightmares..."
( But I have to put an end to it...once and for all...now or never...)
Jumping out of bed, slipping his normal clothes on and brushing his hair back a bit, he left his room...
Knocking firmly on her dorm room, he gazed at the door puzzled and anxious at why she wasn't answering...she usually does...when he knocks THIS hard.
Sighing he took a brisk walk around the Garden to find her.
"Hmm...where could she possibly be..." he frowned, his anxiety growing with every step, every glance...every love-filled heart beat
"RINOA!!!"
His heart skipped a beat, his eyes huge in horror...
Hopes on finding her disappeared, as his heart sunk at the sight of her blue robe lying in front of the Training Center.
( Paranoid. Paranoid. Paranoid. I'm just being Paranoid..maybe she...but why would she!? Why would she take it off before going into the Training Center???)
A lump in his throat formed, he couldn't explain why her robe was lying there, his mind raced with the most ludicrous ideas and solutions. He held his head and forced himself to stop thinking, taking a deep breath he calmed himself down.
(I hate it when I start thinking too much... I can't explain it...no point thinking about it...I have to go in and check...)
Gripping his Gunblade firmly, he walked in, picking her robe up as he went along...
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Chapter 3
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"RINOA!!!" Squall walked in slowly, glancing around, scrutinizing every detail that he could make out in the semi-lit Training Center. His eyes searched frantically, his heart racing with fear..."Rinoa...where are you..."
Rinoa glanced up to Raziel, her eyes filled with tears..."Raziel...this is wrong...I...I-"
he gazed at her with a fierce glint of want, which suddenly disappeared and seemed to be camouflaged as understanding and sorrow...
"I...understand....you're right." his soft voice whispered.
She turned around, her heart speeding in her throat as she heard her name being
called........and that....by Squall.
"Raziel! I have to get out of here before he sees me!" she looked at him, her eyes
gleaming with frenzy and tight gripped fear. Raziel seemed to be in a dream world, blinking as he snapped out of it, "Huh?".
Rinoa shook her head, as if you dismiss him, and hastily made her way out of the secret area, just wearing her black vest and shorts. Raziel stopped in his tracks as he heard Squall calling Rinoa and decided not to go after her...
Squall finally came to the entrance of the secret area, wondering if it was open, which it was evidently not, as the door was shut tightly. He turned on his heel and proceeded in the direction of the water that lay beyond...
Slipping her Dorm key out of her vest top, Rinoa rashly fiddled with the lock, clicking it open and stumbling inside. Closing the door behind her with a quivering hand, she leaned against it taking a few deep breaths of relief...
Squall searched a few more moments and returned to the Dorms.
Hearing someone approach the Dorms, Rinoa instantly switched off the light,
immediately plunging herself into utter darkness, the only thing she could hear was her heart throbbing in her ear...as loud and clear as ever......
Squall stepped towards her door, every step taken was an echo of her own heart beat, racing, speeding in her ears, as if all the sounds and conversations on earth had come to a standstill, her ears only receiving the firm vibrations of her pounding heart....
The footsteps stopped. She sucked in her breath, gasping with inner and utter shock. He stood, raising a hand, about to knock. With each knock, he blasted a sonic boom right through her, penetrating through her body, her sin stained soul...
Shivering, she lost all confidence, answering to the knock was a foreign action to her, speaking was a foreign language, thinking an impossible thing to accomplish...she stood there paralyzed, heavy guilt beating down on her, her soul... The knocking ended, he sighed and all signs of his presence disappeared... Sliding against the door,
down to the floor, she gave a long deep sigh...she regretted what she had done...
"Raziel..."
A deep feeling of self-disgust formed in the pit of her stomach.
Salty tears of sadness trickled down her cheeks, as she burst into regretful, guilty tears...
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Chapter 4
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She smirked at him, not knowing what to say. He approached her, a heavenly, light feeling lingering in the air... The vision seemed blurred, a whitish glow around everything she set eyes on.
"Eyes this beautiful, a set of lips this luscious, a complexion like no other... I know, you really are at loss of words...but thats how I like you." he stepped closer, pressing a hand gently on her cheek, shadowing her face with his head that moved closer to hers, as his lips locked onto hers...
A knock on the door ripped Rinoa's dream in two.
Pushing the douvet off her legs gently, she jumped out of bed and opened the door.
"Rinoa..." his eyes seemed dewy, a glint of concern in his voice.
Rinoa's gaze dropped to the floor in guilt of her actions, which Squall was still oblivious to. Squall stepped closer, raising her chin with his hand, looking into her eyes, a deep, passionate flame burning endlessly in his normally cool, cold eyes.
Rinoa stared back, feeling her knees quiver and give way for her to drop down. Squall frowned in confusion, kneed down in front of her, holding her by either side of her arms "Rinoa...what's wrong..?"
"Uh.....Is this some sort of two-way proposal to each other or why are you both on the floor like that?" A familiarly bossy yet humorous voice boomed from Behind Squall. Rinoa, seeming relieved, from the tension between her and him, giggled, standing up again and brushing her shorts a bit.
Quistis smiled, her usually sunny, cheery smile, as Squall stood up.
"So, am I invited to the wedding?" Quistis beamed.
Squall and Rinoa both looked at each other and then to the floor... Qusitis frowned a little, wondering what had happened.
"Uh...I think I'll go. By the way Squall I just came back from that SeeD, Timber Maniacs mission. It wasn't very challenging, but the next chase in Timber is very serious. They want you to jump in, I know you can do it. Report to the Headmasters Office tomorrow."
flashing a quick smile, she turned on her heel and descended into the corridors beyond.
Rinoa gazed at Squall for a moment, before she strolled back into her room and closed the door.
"Rinoa...?" Squall stood before the door wondering what was wrong with her.
"Yeah?"
"You...you forgot your robe outside the training center..." Swiftly opening her door she stepped out, looking at him.
He handed her the robe, "Rinoa, can we talk please?"
Rinoa glanced up at him, slipping her robe on, "yeah, sure...".
Placing a gentle hand on her shoulder, gazing deeply into her eyes, he whispered something...
"I...know I don't say this very often...but...I...I...love you, and..I don't want to lose you, not matter what. Forget the thing about Seifer, I don't need to know your past, to know you. And I'll say it again, I love you, Rinoa... ( I sure have changed...)"
Growing tears twinkled in her eyes, her heart ripped in two, sensing his love, his desire towards her, it seemed to her, that she was loving an angel, an angel that could to no wrong, unlike herself. An acute pain of guilt shot through her, once-innocent, heart.
She clenched her eyes together, as she felt him embrace her, stroking her back lovingly. The Guilt, wearing down on her, like heavy, unbearable, pelting rain.
Sighing softly, she blocked the guilt out, she fought against the feeling, a few nice memories together with Squall floating back to mind...
Gaining her strength and confidence, she looked up to Squall, hugging him gently, her lips gently drawing closer to his, and with him noticing, he also lowered his head and kissed her shortly but sweetly.
"Did you come across T-rex in the training Center yet, Rinoa?" Squall smiled his rare smile.
Rinoa's heart stopped. She looked up at him wondering if he already knew about... Squall looked at her waiting for an answer
"Uh...I guess you haven't even heard of T-rex right?" Squall scratched uncertainly behind his head.
Rinoa smiled, knowing, that the subject matter stayed with "T-rex" and not with "what did you do there", she replied:
"Uh, not really..no" and giggled a bit.
Rinoa, for once in a long while, flashed him a big dazzling smile, as she gained more confidence, a boost of control, which made him smile more broadly too.
. o O ( hmmm I guess she came across something funny...? I dunno.. )
Glimpsing shortly out of her dorm window, he frowned concerned.. "Rinoa, it's noon already..."
Rinoa wondered what he was trying to say, a bewildered expression masking her face.
"The hot-dogs are sold out..." Squall smiled, his rare-timer joke, seeming to strike Rinoa terribly funny.
Rinoa burst into laughter, as she usually wouldn't expect him to say things like that.
Squall grinned, and strolled down the corridor with her, an arm gently over her shoulder...
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Chapter 5
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Zell ate as if he was on a hot-dog-eating-contest, and literally stuffed it all in. Raising an eyebrow in wonder and awe, Irvine shook his head and grinned.
Selphie giggled, glanzing around the Cafeteria that seemed to be bustling and buzzing with activity.
A loud sound like an animal was suffocating interupted the usual chit-chat and conversations, as Zell, struggling and wriggling in his seat was choking on the hot-dogs he was eating.
"Heeeyyy Zell! Hang in there!" Selphie rushed to virtually clobber his back, and gasped in surprise as he stood up and started laughing.
"Heh-heh. Things like that don't happen all the time y'know. YOU FELL FOR IT! Heh-heh!" He grinned.
Irvine just rolled his eyes, smirking and turned his attention to the lovely, female passerbies...
Zell finished his hot-dogs off and stood up, stretching himself. "Boy, that sure was good!"
"Is this the second time after "That" incident that you layed your hands on hot-dogs, Zell?" Selphie grinned mischieviously. "Or why else are you stuffing it in as if it were the last day on earth?"
Immediately backing off, offended, Zell frowned at Selphie "Wha? What's up? You tryin' ta say I don't catch my Hot-dogs?" he actually asked the question, not meaning it rhetorical, like you would, if you understood the remark in the first place.
Selphie stood up, giggling cheerfully as she usually does, "OF COURSE!!!" she bobbed up and down waving her arms, giggling cheekily.
He let his shoulders drop, and sighed shaking his head "Awwww, man..."
"It's a JOKE!" she retorted, enthusiasticly.
Still stealing wishful glances at other girls, Irvine fell off his chair as Selphie's head coasted into view right in front of him blocking his sight, "Hey, what're you lookin' at?!" once again, she showed her jealous little side.
Swallowing, he chuckled, rising to his feet, he adjusted his hat and flashed her one of his Oh-ain't-you-looking-gorgeous-today smiles.
"Come on, Irvy-kinni-poo!!!" Selphie embraced one of his arms and huggled herself on his side, gazing up to him.
"Sure, Selphie, baby." he saluted Zell, winking and left off with Selphie.
Meanwhile...
"Yes, Headmaster, I will report back as soon as possible. I just need to find Squall. " Quistis saluted the regular SeeD way, turned around and entered the lift.
Noticing Irvine and Selphie head towards the entrance, to the main gates, Quistis raised her voice to catch their attention in time.
"Hey! Wait!" she came rushing before them, as they turned towards her.
"Hi, you two, have you seen Squall anywhere?" Quistis smiled wondering, somewhat curiously, where they were going.
Selphie smiled, shrugged "Nope, sowwy." and giggled.
Irvine shook his head "Nah, but the last time I did see Squall was...uhh..yeah, at lunch, but he left shortly..uhh-".
"It's ok, thanks, I'll find him." Quistis smiled and turned on her heel, and strolled off towards the Library, leaving them two to continue proceeding towards the gates, where outside the sun shimmered and beamed onto the ground.
A few white, airy, light feathers floated through the gates and into the Garden, by the sheer mischief of the breeze's whispery wind game�
I'm really glad I got it back. It's not great or anything, it's just that it's my first fanfic, and it has a lot of memories attached. When i re-read it I feel myself remembering things I thought I had forgotten, so it's got a lot of emotional value to me, even if it is inferior in many ways.
So on this note...I'm thinking of reposting it here as it is nowhere to be found in it's original home, ffwa. I think I might have deleted it at once occasion, thinking I won't ever write again, and once I think my brother deleted it from the archives when it was fully completed in 2002.
I'm sorry about that, but with that thought in mind, I want to post it in it's original state, without any changes, and then maybe later, when I have time, I can do a revamp on it. But that's all for now from me, thanks for reading.
P.S. I'll post multiple chapters, as they were quite short back then to make up for space.
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Silent Sexy Seduction
<hr>
Chapter 1
Brisk, cool, breezes swept over the lonesome fields that lay just outside Balamb
Garden... long shadows stretching over it, converting the normal colour of the field into a darker shade. Rinoa gazed up to Squall who stood beside her..."Squall...why are we here?"
Squall gazed down to the grass and didn't answer. Closing his eyes, his expression
changed, a small urge of hate vibrating in his hand as he clenched it... He looked up again, his eyes burning with an impulsive curiosity and solid determination. Rinoa watched him, not knowing what his behavior was indicating.
"Squall, tell me, what's wrong? Why did you take me here...it's getting dark.."
Squall gazed at her, his expression softening.
"Rinoa...I want to know your past...I want to know...what was between you and
Seifer...and I took you here to be alone with you..."
Rinoa's glance dropped and her reluctancy made Squall step up to her so close that, there may have been literally no space between them anymore. Squall slipped his arms around her gently and looked her in the eyes, his usually rare smile inhabiting his lips.
"You can tell me, Rinoa. You past won't change the present...I'll...I'll always...you
know what I mean..."
Rinoa's silence made him frown a little.
"Squall..."
Squall closed his eyes, sighed and realized he was gripping her tightly and almost
hurting her. He blinked and let go of her.
Rubbing her arm gently Rinoa looked at him, expressionless as ever...
"Rinoa I'm sorr-" She was gone...
Back at Balamb Garden...
Irvine almost dropped his Rifle as Rinoa rushed past him. "Whoa!!" he grasped his Rifle tighter and gazed after her as she disappeared into the Dormitories. Selphie approached Irvine, holding two hot-dogs and followed his gaze.
"What's up. Irvy?"
She tilted her head, wondering. Irvine shrugged, "I don't know, not really. I think that was Rinoa who just ran past me."
He looked back to Selphie and took his hot-dog, flashing a dazzling smile at her.
Smiling back, Selphie bit into her hot-dog and sat herself down on the bench,
listening to the hushed tones of the water fountain behind her.
"Hmm hmm these hot-dogs sure taste great!" Selphie giggled. Irvine sat down and
leaned against the bench finishing his hot-dog off.
"Hmm yeah, I just love sitting here instead of that hot, stuffy Cafeteria." Irvine closed
his eyes, the hat tipped slightly covering his eyes as he relaxed himself a bit.
A gust of wind hurdled past Irvine and Selphie as Zell speeded past them into the
Cafeteria. A few odd moments later he returned looking as gloomy as he always did,
when the hot-dogs were sold out.
"Damn! I missed them at Lunch and now this! Jeez man! This SUCKS!"
Irvine chuckled, shaking his head. Zell sighed, winked with his hand, and went off to
the Dorms.
Irvine grinned at Selphie "Poor guy..." Selphie giggled wiping her mouth with a tissue.
Gazing down, hands in pockets, a solemn expression covering Squalls face like a mask, he walked by towards the Dorms...
Irvine looked at Selphie, seeming somewhat worried about Rinoa and Squall.
"Umm...uh...I would really want to know what is up with those two...hmm..." Selphie nodded and watched Squall disappear around the Training Center area...knowing he was headed towards the Dorms...
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Chapter 2
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Squall lay watching the ceiling, or at least pretending to, in his room, which was filled with utter silence and darkness... He lay awake, the images of Rinoa flashing back and forth, a few puzzling, mysterious reminiscent incidents returning to him...
"Seifer..." he closed his eyes, sighing heavily, the inner curiosity killing him softly. Drifting slowly into sleep, his restless dreams were interrupted by a few, nearby footsteps.
Murmuring he rolled over and fell into a deeper sleep, ignoring the footsteps...
Meanwhile...
"Raziel...no...no..please...just don't..." Rinoa's weak, reluctant attempts to stop him were useless, somehow. His almost white-blondish hair, drifted slightly across his face with the wind, as his deep green eyes seemed to be piercing into her black ones.
"Don't worry..." he placed his hand on her cheek once again, and drew closer, pressing his lips gently over hers. Rinoa, as if it was instinct, slipped her arms around his neck, pressed him closer and returned his forbidden kisses.
Their kissing continued, while the cloud filled sky gave way for the stars and moon to wink and glimmer over them on the Balcony of the secret area.
A sharp intake of breath ripped the silence as Squall, immersed in anxious sweat, awoke with a jolt, panting and wheezing, his eyes wide as he sat there staring at the wall in disbelief...
Raising a hand to his forehead and sighing, he uttered Rinoa's name... "I hate these stupid nightmares..."
( But I have to put an end to it...once and for all...now or never...)
Jumping out of bed, slipping his normal clothes on and brushing his hair back a bit, he left his room...
Knocking firmly on her dorm room, he gazed at the door puzzled and anxious at why she wasn't answering...she usually does...when he knocks THIS hard.
Sighing he took a brisk walk around the Garden to find her.
"Hmm...where could she possibly be..." he frowned, his anxiety growing with every step, every glance...every love-filled heart beat
"RINOA!!!"
His heart skipped a beat, his eyes huge in horror...
Hopes on finding her disappeared, as his heart sunk at the sight of her blue robe lying in front of the Training Center.
( Paranoid. Paranoid. Paranoid. I'm just being Paranoid..maybe she...but why would she!? Why would she take it off before going into the Training Center???)
A lump in his throat formed, he couldn't explain why her robe was lying there, his mind raced with the most ludicrous ideas and solutions. He held his head and forced himself to stop thinking, taking a deep breath he calmed himself down.
(I hate it when I start thinking too much... I can't explain it...no point thinking about it...I have to go in and check...)
Gripping his Gunblade firmly, he walked in, picking her robe up as he went along...
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Chapter 3
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"RINOA!!!" Squall walked in slowly, glancing around, scrutinizing every detail that he could make out in the semi-lit Training Center. His eyes searched frantically, his heart racing with fear..."Rinoa...where are you..."
Rinoa glanced up to Raziel, her eyes filled with tears..."Raziel...this is wrong...I...I-"
he gazed at her with a fierce glint of want, which suddenly disappeared and seemed to be camouflaged as understanding and sorrow...
"I...understand....you're right." his soft voice whispered.
She turned around, her heart speeding in her throat as she heard her name being
called........and that....by Squall.
"Raziel! I have to get out of here before he sees me!" she looked at him, her eyes
gleaming with frenzy and tight gripped fear. Raziel seemed to be in a dream world, blinking as he snapped out of it, "Huh?".
Rinoa shook her head, as if you dismiss him, and hastily made her way out of the secret area, just wearing her black vest and shorts. Raziel stopped in his tracks as he heard Squall calling Rinoa and decided not to go after her...
Squall finally came to the entrance of the secret area, wondering if it was open, which it was evidently not, as the door was shut tightly. He turned on his heel and proceeded in the direction of the water that lay beyond...
Slipping her Dorm key out of her vest top, Rinoa rashly fiddled with the lock, clicking it open and stumbling inside. Closing the door behind her with a quivering hand, she leaned against it taking a few deep breaths of relief...
Squall searched a few more moments and returned to the Dorms.
Hearing someone approach the Dorms, Rinoa instantly switched off the light,
immediately plunging herself into utter darkness, the only thing she could hear was her heart throbbing in her ear...as loud and clear as ever......
Squall stepped towards her door, every step taken was an echo of her own heart beat, racing, speeding in her ears, as if all the sounds and conversations on earth had come to a standstill, her ears only receiving the firm vibrations of her pounding heart....
The footsteps stopped. She sucked in her breath, gasping with inner and utter shock. He stood, raising a hand, about to knock. With each knock, he blasted a sonic boom right through her, penetrating through her body, her sin stained soul...
Shivering, she lost all confidence, answering to the knock was a foreign action to her, speaking was a foreign language, thinking an impossible thing to accomplish...she stood there paralyzed, heavy guilt beating down on her, her soul... The knocking ended, he sighed and all signs of his presence disappeared... Sliding against the door,
down to the floor, she gave a long deep sigh...she regretted what she had done...
"Raziel..."
A deep feeling of self-disgust formed in the pit of her stomach.
Salty tears of sadness trickled down her cheeks, as she burst into regretful, guilty tears...
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Chapter 4
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She smirked at him, not knowing what to say. He approached her, a heavenly, light feeling lingering in the air... The vision seemed blurred, a whitish glow around everything she set eyes on.
"Eyes this beautiful, a set of lips this luscious, a complexion like no other... I know, you really are at loss of words...but thats how I like you." he stepped closer, pressing a hand gently on her cheek, shadowing her face with his head that moved closer to hers, as his lips locked onto hers...
A knock on the door ripped Rinoa's dream in two.
Pushing the douvet off her legs gently, she jumped out of bed and opened the door.
"Rinoa..." his eyes seemed dewy, a glint of concern in his voice.
Rinoa's gaze dropped to the floor in guilt of her actions, which Squall was still oblivious to. Squall stepped closer, raising her chin with his hand, looking into her eyes, a deep, passionate flame burning endlessly in his normally cool, cold eyes.
Rinoa stared back, feeling her knees quiver and give way for her to drop down. Squall frowned in confusion, kneed down in front of her, holding her by either side of her arms "Rinoa...what's wrong..?"
"Uh.....Is this some sort of two-way proposal to each other or why are you both on the floor like that?" A familiarly bossy yet humorous voice boomed from Behind Squall. Rinoa, seeming relieved, from the tension between her and him, giggled, standing up again and brushing her shorts a bit.
Quistis smiled, her usually sunny, cheery smile, as Squall stood up.
"So, am I invited to the wedding?" Quistis beamed.
Squall and Rinoa both looked at each other and then to the floor... Qusitis frowned a little, wondering what had happened.
"Uh...I think I'll go. By the way Squall I just came back from that SeeD, Timber Maniacs mission. It wasn't very challenging, but the next chase in Timber is very serious. They want you to jump in, I know you can do it. Report to the Headmasters Office tomorrow."
flashing a quick smile, she turned on her heel and descended into the corridors beyond.
Rinoa gazed at Squall for a moment, before she strolled back into her room and closed the door.
"Rinoa...?" Squall stood before the door wondering what was wrong with her.
"Yeah?"
"You...you forgot your robe outside the training center..." Swiftly opening her door she stepped out, looking at him.
He handed her the robe, "Rinoa, can we talk please?"
Rinoa glanced up at him, slipping her robe on, "yeah, sure...".
Placing a gentle hand on her shoulder, gazing deeply into her eyes, he whispered something...
"I...know I don't say this very often...but...I...I...love you, and..I don't want to lose you, not matter what. Forget the thing about Seifer, I don't need to know your past, to know you. And I'll say it again, I love you, Rinoa... ( I sure have changed...)"
Growing tears twinkled in her eyes, her heart ripped in two, sensing his love, his desire towards her, it seemed to her, that she was loving an angel, an angel that could to no wrong, unlike herself. An acute pain of guilt shot through her, once-innocent, heart.
She clenched her eyes together, as she felt him embrace her, stroking her back lovingly. The Guilt, wearing down on her, like heavy, unbearable, pelting rain.
Sighing softly, she blocked the guilt out, she fought against the feeling, a few nice memories together with Squall floating back to mind...
Gaining her strength and confidence, she looked up to Squall, hugging him gently, her lips gently drawing closer to his, and with him noticing, he also lowered his head and kissed her shortly but sweetly.
"Did you come across T-rex in the training Center yet, Rinoa?" Squall smiled his rare smile.
Rinoa's heart stopped. She looked up at him wondering if he already knew about... Squall looked at her waiting for an answer
"Uh...I guess you haven't even heard of T-rex right?" Squall scratched uncertainly behind his head.
Rinoa smiled, knowing, that the subject matter stayed with "T-rex" and not with "what did you do there", she replied:
"Uh, not really..no" and giggled a bit.
Rinoa, for once in a long while, flashed him a big dazzling smile, as she gained more confidence, a boost of control, which made him smile more broadly too.
. o O ( hmmm I guess she came across something funny...? I dunno.. )
Glimpsing shortly out of her dorm window, he frowned concerned.. "Rinoa, it's noon already..."
Rinoa wondered what he was trying to say, a bewildered expression masking her face.
"The hot-dogs are sold out..." Squall smiled, his rare-timer joke, seeming to strike Rinoa terribly funny.
Rinoa burst into laughter, as she usually wouldn't expect him to say things like that.
Squall grinned, and strolled down the corridor with her, an arm gently over her shoulder...
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Chapter 5
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Zell ate as if he was on a hot-dog-eating-contest, and literally stuffed it all in. Raising an eyebrow in wonder and awe, Irvine shook his head and grinned.
Selphie giggled, glanzing around the Cafeteria that seemed to be bustling and buzzing with activity.
A loud sound like an animal was suffocating interupted the usual chit-chat and conversations, as Zell, struggling and wriggling in his seat was choking on the hot-dogs he was eating.
"Heeeyyy Zell! Hang in there!" Selphie rushed to virtually clobber his back, and gasped in surprise as he stood up and started laughing.
"Heh-heh. Things like that don't happen all the time y'know. YOU FELL FOR IT! Heh-heh!" He grinned.
Irvine just rolled his eyes, smirking and turned his attention to the lovely, female passerbies...
Zell finished his hot-dogs off and stood up, stretching himself. "Boy, that sure was good!"
"Is this the second time after "That" incident that you layed your hands on hot-dogs, Zell?" Selphie grinned mischieviously. "Or why else are you stuffing it in as if it were the last day on earth?"
Immediately backing off, offended, Zell frowned at Selphie "Wha? What's up? You tryin' ta say I don't catch my Hot-dogs?" he actually asked the question, not meaning it rhetorical, like you would, if you understood the remark in the first place.
Selphie stood up, giggling cheerfully as she usually does, "OF COURSE!!!" she bobbed up and down waving her arms, giggling cheekily.
He let his shoulders drop, and sighed shaking his head "Awwww, man..."
"It's a JOKE!" she retorted, enthusiasticly.
Still stealing wishful glances at other girls, Irvine fell off his chair as Selphie's head coasted into view right in front of him blocking his sight, "Hey, what're you lookin' at?!" once again, she showed her jealous little side.
Swallowing, he chuckled, rising to his feet, he adjusted his hat and flashed her one of his Oh-ain't-you-looking-gorgeous-today smiles.
"Come on, Irvy-kinni-poo!!!" Selphie embraced one of his arms and huggled herself on his side, gazing up to him.
"Sure, Selphie, baby." he saluted Zell, winking and left off with Selphie.
Meanwhile...
"Yes, Headmaster, I will report back as soon as possible. I just need to find Squall. " Quistis saluted the regular SeeD way, turned around and entered the lift.
Noticing Irvine and Selphie head towards the entrance, to the main gates, Quistis raised her voice to catch their attention in time.
"Hey! Wait!" she came rushing before them, as they turned towards her.
"Hi, you two, have you seen Squall anywhere?" Quistis smiled wondering, somewhat curiously, where they were going.
Selphie smiled, shrugged "Nope, sowwy." and giggled.
Irvine shook his head "Nah, but the last time I did see Squall was...uhh..yeah, at lunch, but he left shortly..uhh-".
"It's ok, thanks, I'll find him." Quistis smiled and turned on her heel, and strolled off towards the Library, leaving them two to continue proceeding towards the gates, where outside the sun shimmered and beamed onto the ground.
A few white, airy, light feathers floated through the gates and into the Garden, by the sheer mischief of the breeze's whispery wind game�